The following writing I compiled 6 years ago and it includes a personal experience when I found myself in great danger and received help. You will see that the use of my English language was at that time even less polished than it is now, but I will leave it exactly how I compiled it. I wrote the following on the day when Jill Meager was found, murdered and her body dumped by the side of a street. I had the urge to help others with sharing my views and experiences.
From Edeltraud Grace
We NEED spiritual knowledge.
It was about 8PM in the evening, and I was sitting in the little reading room of the big house I was staying in. There were two two-seater lounge sofas, greyish green with floral pattern. The big lampshade gave out some soft light shining into the room making it look warm and cozy.
I was reading a funny book, just for relaxation when my relative came in and asked me if I could come out into the garage as he wanted to let me know what he has done with the car. My husband was on a business trip, and the car was not working so I called him if he could have a look at it.
“There was nothing really wrong, just the battery was flat”, as I accidentally let a light on but he advised me to still, when my husband comes back from his trip, to search out a garage as it should not have happened that the battery emptied completely after only one light on during the night.
We came back into the house and sat down in the little reading room. “Do you want a cup of tea or coffee?” I asked him. “A tea would be great, with some milk, please. “ I asked how his wife was going and his 7-year-old daughter. He replied they are going all fine. Then after a short pause, he told me that his wife was going in a direction he could not understand. She was starting to read these “spiritual” books. His face expressed utter disgust, and his hand went up to his head. “There is nothing spiritual; this is all an illusion,” he said.
This woke me up as me seeing myself as a highly spiritual person thought; I cannot let this now go, I need to tell him that spirituality is true. But at the same moment, my relative’s lifestyle rolled up in front of my inner eyes. He a successful computer expert, big house, big property, a boat, two cars, three holidays a year, vehement football supporter, believing in the doctrine of science for everything like health to planning his life, to what the meaning of life was all about, which was the acquiring of material goods, not doing any harm and death was the end of it all.
Spirituality as such is utterly useless he said to me hoping I would nod with my head and support him. He knew I was a counselor, nationally accredited, so his idea of what I was doing was that I use a scientifically approved method to help people who have some kind of emotional problem and emotions are nothing else then………….? Ups here he was not really sure what they were, but this was not up to him to think about. (That is what he said another time)
Me now having worked with so many people over many years, knew in my heart of hearts that it is just this spiritual knowledge that can drag people out of the deepest emotional suffering.
As someone who is severely depressed will at least in 95 % of cases seize to be so badly depressed if the person begins to feel, see and understand that………….
-they have the power over their destiny, and they are able to change their destiny
-there is love in even the greatest of emotional sufferings and also meaning
-we are embedded in meaning
-our life is deeply meaningful
-we are a part of the bigger whole, and we can make something worthwhile as long as we know how.
Give this understanding, insight, recognition in any way you can to any depressed person and see them flower.
But how to tell this a person who relies up to now only on his intellect and has no time for other things and definitely has no emotional problems ? Will he even listen to my 105 stories I could share with him?
From the honesty of my heart, I believe probably not. So if you are like this guy, my relative, lay down this reading as I will not take any effort in trying to convince you of anything, but if you want to know why I believe that we NEED spiritual knowledge to be happy, so we NEED it, then read on.
By the way was I grateful that my clever relative turned up, helped me out with the car as I had to drive to the city the next day to a meeting. Really grateful, he is a very nice guy.
All I told him was that I do understand why his wife is interested in spiritual things and that I am personally convinced that we are spirits in a physical body and that I use this knowledge in a practical sense pretty much with every client I see. He looked at me perplexed. I thought you are a professional Counsellor. “Yes I am, but I use energy based methods to help my client to help change energy based suffering. “
“Look this is what I do not like about women. They live in la la land; there is no such thing as energy-based suffering. “
Then I asked him, what about heartbreak? What about you would come home, and your wife would tell you she wants a divorce. The pain you feel what is it all about? You feel it in your heart, but no one has physically hurt you there“For heaven’s sake, this has nothing to do with larifari energy, I would miss her as she is materially then not here for me anymore. You know like a dog would miss his food if he would not get fed for a day or two. It is nothing energetically; it is missing someone, something as it is not there. The same as you miss a place you had a marvelous holiday in, there is nothing spiritual, energetic, you just miss this damn place. “
He tried to stay friendly, just to say, but now got up, thinking probably here is another female dreamer, I just had it, I will go to the pub have some beer this will give me good real energy. And he went out of the door telling me, look I have to pick up Jenny in 20 minutes, hope your car works now well and if you need me again, let me know.” And he was gone.
Here I was sitting, then got up and went into the kitchen with a nervous feeling and made myself one of this sweet tasting cappuccinos with the hope this would calm me down.
Oh yes in his view spirituality was useless, or energy work was useless there was no such thing as these aspects of life.
The TV in the formal lounge was on, and I turned the sound louder and sat down with my cappuccino. The woman who was missed for a few days was now found dead in a shallow grave. A man was convicted of her murder, and he was the one who showed police to the place. Her name was Jill Meager.
The young woman’s face was all over the news since the last week. Going missing after a visit to the pub. How awful this was and an image from the past came up in my own mind. A painful reminder of a similar happening when I lived in a beautiful area in the Alpes in Europe.
I was about 25, a bit younger as this lady who was so cruelly murdered. It was a November day, it was really somehow damp and very foggy on this afternoon, but I did have a day off from my work as a hotel employee and I wanted to make a really very long walk deep into the mountain forest, best also up the hill to get a good workout, and there was a path leading into the forest, up the hill, passing a nice restaurant, down the hill with views across the breathtaking valley overlooking endless rows of high mountains in the distance and this pathway would also lead me back to the settlement I was staying in. Absolutely breathtakingly beautiful views and I was looking forward to it all. So I was passing the temple, a beautiful building used for Hours of Worship and part of the settlement and then I entered the forest.
I have to tell you that my own interest in spiritual reality already started when I was 20. How come? As it really came all of a sudden to the forefront.
My boyfriend of three years all of a sudden broke up with me for another woman, and I felt this excruciating pain in my lower body since this day, so badly that it literally turned my world upside down. This cannot be all to life. How he treated me? Am I just some object he can dump whenever he wants to? Oh I better not share with you dear reader what went through me at this time, I might do this another time, but what it truly did for me it was pushing me like a 20 tonne truck pushing something, to find and search for answers in relations to why are we here, who are we truly, do we live on after we die or are we only some bodies with a something similar to a computer in our heads?
The answers to this and the answers to many more questions I did find in the Grail Message, In The Light of Truth. (Abd Ru Shin) which was since the day I found it and up to this day today and into the future, my favorite book and if you’d send me on an island and I could only take one book, I would definitely choose this one.
Okay, in this book I learned about the existence of the so-called ethereal world or other people say to this energy world. How we might not be able to see it, but we can feel it through our intuition, a reality existing other than our physical existence.
And here I entered the damp forest and all of a sudden I had a “weird” at least for me” weird “type of sense and a bird sang a sad song and in my head came up this one sentence. “ This is a messenger of death.”
I stood still for a moment and thought why is this coming now up in my head, does this bird song remind me on some movies in the past, oh perhaps some horror movie, that must be the case and without a care in the world I continued my walk, when I had the “weird” sense that someone, but there was definitely no one I could see with my physical eyes, but I had this “sense” someone was standing in the path and saying I should go back home and not continue walking. What I thought I was just 3 minutes into the forest, why turning around already? And I thought okay which movie did I see that, as I thought this is some kind of flashback from a movie as I promise you there was no one, no real person there who stood in my way, it was only a sense which my relative, who fixed my car so nicely, would have definitely interpreted as some silly female fantasy based on general anxiety which is based on some overproduction of substances in the body. So I walked on, further and further, and deeper into the forest.
The path got smaller, it was winding and here came this huge curve towards the left, and I knew as I have walked this path endless times before, this is a path leading down for a while and then there would be a fork in the path, separating it into two paths then, one small path downwards and one path to the left upwards and both paths did lead to areas of the forest which could had been used for a spooky film as it was so untouched, wild, but also so narrow and surrounded with stony walls or dense forest.
So turn left and slowly walked the path down towards this fork which divided the path into two, when I all of a sudden “saw” somehow “ saw” with other eyes then my physical eyes, approximately five little gnomes. Yes, you read right. I saw gnomes. Not with my physical eyes as there were no material gnomes at all but with other eyes. I still can remember after all these years exactly how they looked like, although this does not even matter to the subject I want to explain. Their clothes had the color of the surrounding earth and the dried leaves which covered the late autumn forest floor.
These gnomes that I saw with other eyes then physical eyes stood either in the way or some of them jumped literally up and down in front of me and told me to hide behind a bush on the left they pointed to and to do it NOW. There was this vehement urgency to do it and as if under a trance I already walked towards the bush but then my brain started to doubt and although I saw this all, and I heard this all and my energy body was screaming alarm in me, as I did not see it with my physical eyes and did not hear it with my physical ears my brain started to doubt the reality of it and tell me, there is nothing, this is only an illusion.
Thinking this I felt all of a sudden this excruciating overwhelming PAIN in my solar plexus area and I turned around to the direction where I was just a minute ago coming from, and I saw not with my physical eyes but with my other eyes a HUGE approximately 2.45 m high monster coming from around the corner towards me. The monster I saw on that day did look as if it was put together with symbols you would paint on a wall as graffiti, expressing hate, lowest animal instincts, aggression, cruelty. Harsh, disharmonious forms and colors screaming at me.
I still can see it in my mind’s eye how it was walking towards me and while I was looking at it feeling like under a shock, unable to move, at that very second a physical man appeared on the path. This man was “real” as material real as someone can be in a lonely forest afternoon in foggy November. He was obviously tall and strong looking. Brought shoulders and he was dressed in a beige suit. How weird, a beige suit in the forest for a walk.
I saw his face which looked unnatural grey and pale, and I felt ice blood pumping through my veins, his blood which was like ice, going through every cell of my body, the sense of ice cold cruelty. At least this seemed to be transmitted now on to me to my energy body as what was going on in him, or if you have another explanation, let me know. It was my spiritual impression from him, what was energetically happening in this man.
What should I do now?
The man who naturally now saw me too did not continue stopped walking although he was just 15 meters away from me but made a side step into the forest and searched for something making a lot of noise while shuffling on the floor, as I suppose now he was doing was that he was searching for a stick.
A million things seemed to go through my mind in the matter of a second. There is danger, this man is cruel, these all were warnings, and I have not listened to them as I thought in my head these were just my own thoughts mixed up of movies I have seen in the past.
I need help, and I stayed where I was, but my whole soul uttered a prayer for help. I said in the prayer that , “I did not trust the warning, here I am, please help me, I know this is a thing of life and death. “ How I knew it, I felt it in every part of my being.
I knew that if I would continue walking deeper into the forest this strong looking man could get me easily and the path to get help from other people was for me literally blocked altogether for at least another 35 minutes due to where these paths were leading to. All of a sudden I heard a voice. It said this is a test for you, in how far you do trust. I knew it was and I knew I ignored the help from my intuition in ignoring all these intuitions I had before.
This voice continued. “Turn around towards this man now. Walk towards him, (the man was actually still beside the path frantically searching for something on the forest floor). Pass this man, don’t look into his eyes, I repeat don’t look into his eyes, pass him calmly, focus only on the help surrounding you and when you have passed him and walked about 2 meters behind him start to run and run until you have reached the settlement. Run for your life.”
I straight away turned around and did what the voice asked me to. I felt a huge energy armor around me, and I sensed this was not coming from me but from these “helpers” who also tried to warn me beforehand. Like a wall made of strong Light. I focused all my intention on complete trust to these helpers and God, and it took me some effort not to get overwhelmed by the immense fear, which was also lurking in a part of my body. I did not look into his eyes, passed him and then run for about 15 minutes until I totally shaken, exhausted and still deeply shocked about what just happened, reached the settlement where I lived.
Two of my co-workers who saw me entering the house came towards me and asked what was happening, why I looked so in horror and why I was shaking, I told them, and the incident was brought before the settlement directors and to my astonishment a big announcement was made the next day that there is officially a warning and no one should at this point enter into the forest alone but only walk in company until otherwise advised.
So looking back on this little experience I had I wondered what my relative would say about it. He probably would explain things away with, there was probably never any danger, I was still having fantasies in my head, and perhaps the guy was afraid of me.
So this tall, muscular guy was afraid of a 25-year-old young woman who had a very slim build and was soft and vulnerable looking, really girlish and younger as my real age. And why was this guy just coming around the corner when I had this vision of the monster? What a coincidence.
Like is it not obvious that my intuitions, my emotions I had on this path, had a connection to the “energies” which this man fostered in himself and gave out from him into the energetic surrounding? I could feel his thoughts, his ideas, what he was up to in regards to me. Who knows he might have been following me already all the way when I entered the forest.
Although we cannot see these volitions of a person with the physical eyes, nevertheless my energy body “read” the message as the message of danger. Something was energetically wrong, and I got it, in intuitions, etc. How these things looked like or how I got the message is as such irrelevant in my view, all that is relevant here is that we are perfectly capably to see, feel, sense, hear more than just hard physical reality. I felt the energies coming from this man, and these energies were real in the energy world, and as I am a spirit in a physical body, I also have an energy body, very much capable of reading and sensing these realities.
How would it have been if this young then cruelly murdered woman perhaps taken the time to listen to her energy body? She was distracted by thinking about her ill father as she just was inquiring about his wellbeing on the phone with her brother minutes before her then murderer talked to her. But if she would perhaps be open for this what came from this man, perhaps she would had felt that this guy who talked to her beforehand as this was shown on TV captured by a security camera in front of a bridal shop, perhaps she would had felt that this was super dangerous, and she would have asked someone for help, or not walk on into a certain lonely street and take a longer path which was more busy but safe. I do not know, and I do not want to suggest something here which might not be applied to her case, but we do have an energy body which can sense the reality of volitions of other people as these volitions other people have, affect the energy world.
Here I was sitting, coming back into the room from this for me at that time life changing memory still holding on to my now cold and half-empty cup of cappuccino, looking onto the TV. There was this Big Brother ad on, which now totally distracted me.
A bunch of people living in an artificial house on Dreamworld being observed day and night by Big Brother and the viewers could listen to what they said inclusive private conversations, worries, etc. and watch what they do in the house, day and night. Unspoken thoughts were naturally excluded and Big Brother and us the watcher had only that what was offered to the physical senses, what we could hear, see, etc. Even the contestants wondered about that, as for why would they be evicted by their fellow contestants who were outwardly friendly to them but in their hearts wanted them obviously out of the house? So no one just watching or listening to others can truly get the whole truth. What is going truly on inside a person can be veiled from outside reality.
Nevertheless watching that on TV brought me back to the now again as I was smiling, I would never like to have a Big Brother watching my every move, private things like showering, listening to private conversations, etc. day and night. What type of people would like to expose this to the general public? Perhaps they like to put on a show.
Me a very private person myself, just wondered why someone would expose themselves on TV, but I did not try to judge it as good or bad, just did not understand it at that point as to protect my privacy, my space was for me always very important. There is more to learn for me about people and why we do what we do or why we do not do what we do. I mean they live in a house with artificial grass, are under the mercy of Big Brother and of themselves as they evict each other each Monday, why would anyone like to be the player in this game? Money? Are they perhaps bored in their normal life? Wish for fame? Why was I even thinking about that? Perhaps I needed to learn something here. ,
My thoughts got interrupted as the phone rings. My dad from Germany calls, talking about how they are going, what’s up and all these interesting things. I hang up after half an hour feeling refreshed as always when I talk to my parents.
I walk into my bedroom put on my pyjamas and start to read in the Grail Message,” In the Light of Truth.”
Without spiritual knowledge we do not live as true human beings, we do not know how we can protect ourselves, we do not know why we are here, and we do not know who we are. We NEED spiritual knowledge.
Thoughts on Prayer
Human beings are continually and unconditionally supported by benevolence, made manifest in the cosmic Laws. Nature is governed by these immutable Laws that are relevant everywhere and at all times, and on which we too, as human beings, depend. However, we rarely sense the love and wisdom embraced by these laws. We can only truly experience this through the exertion of our spiritual core of being, which expresses itself in intuitive perception, the inner voice that accompanies every human being. Our spirit has become lethargic and walled in from lack of exertion.
Our over-cultivated intellect has created an imbalance, causing the finer coverings around the spirit to become dense and thereby dimming its radiance. As a result, today we only rarely hear the whispered warnings and guidance of our inner voice. The world to which our spirit spark belongs has become alien to us and almost unattainable.
We imagine that what we see, touch and feel with our earthly senses constitutes the reality of the entire Creation. We saunter along indifferently through life, with only small earthly aspirations and goals in mind. The sacred duty to investigate the real purpose of our existence hardly touches us. And if it does, we tend to think there is no answer.
We extol individual freedom above all else, together with the potency symbolized by the new gods of market ideologies and the engines of science that has presumed to give definitive answers to the big and small questions of existence. On the one hand, human attitudes seem more tolerant under the principles of democracy, yet intolerance grows. Atheism spreads with dogmatic intensity, along with the view of life as the fluke in a vast cosmic lottery of chemistry, side by side with fundamentalist caricatures of faith with their footprint of atrocities.
Ideas about God come in many forms; seen as all-knowing, all-loving, ever-just, yet also vengeful, jealous, terrifying and even merciless towards the disobedient. Like the Greek deities, the Biblical God seems much like us except that He is more powerful, one who in the manner of pagan gods must be propitiated with sacraments, penance, sacrifices, obeisance, and prayer. Plainly this is anthropomorphism of the highest degree. These notions, though understandable as human projections, exemplify very primitive thinking.
Devaluing, menacing and inadequate are the conceptions we habitually hold of God and His Creation, in the end never getting away from the human standpoint.
Yet ever-present help surrounds us in the working of the perfect cosmic Laws woven by God into His Creation from the beginning. By observing these Laws, we vaguely perceive a glimmer of His stupendous magnitude. No need is so great as to be without hope, no pain without a blessing! The only times we fail are when we want to force our own will, without regard to the eternal order, and when we do things in half measures and rely solely on our earthly intellect. But we choose to stay tuned to the confused noise of the world and do not hear the awakening voice of the spirit. It speaks to us deep within, having first to penetrate many walls, surmount many obstacles, before it can reach our ego. But it does not give up.
Nevertheless, we are in a quandary, not knowing how to access this help that is so close to us. We don’t even realize that we can do so by prayer. Nor do we really know what it means to pray, even when urged to do so in times of great joy or deep pain. Praying is not pleading and begging in anxiety and need, not habitually babbling empty phrases in dull submission.
In a serious and heartfelt prayer, a human soul opens itself before his Lord and Creator. He kneels at His feet in the greatest fervor he can command. He is uplifted by virtue of the magnetic power of the ray of love that has flowed to him. New life, new energy flows through the spirit that looks up to God in humility.
It is really through our gratitude for the experience of love inherent in the automatic activity of the cosmic Laws that we can get to know and learn to experience the real power of prayer. Help can reach us at all times by adjusting to the Will of the Most High manifest in the cosmic Laws. And even if we bring forward a particular wish in prayer, benefit can only reach us lawfully in return through reciprocal action.
To kneel down in wordless, fervent prayer before the greatness of God and beseech Him in a boundless longing to bring to deed the object of our prayer according to His Will, is to get to know the blissful answer that comes from on High when the supplicant is selfless and humble.
He who has never experienced within himself the glorious majesty of God and the grandeur of His Creation, he who has never perceived his own smallness deep within, does not yet know what it means to pray: a profound self-surrender, a single jubilant soul seeking to connect with God. The power of prayer is transforming. Luminous threads are attracted to the person who seeks this connection with the Light. These threads can reach him finally and become the firm anchor he can hold on to in every dis-tress.
He must then tend and maintain the path that leads to the Helper. The way thereto for the human spirit is a voluntary adjustment to His Will. It is like an earthly path: if we travel on it every day, it will become familiar to us, it will begin to appear shorter and ever easier, even in the dark of the most excruciating experiences.
A tremendous power lies in the inner life of man! If it is developed and used for the good, it uplifts our surroundings; if it is darkened through pursuing base aims, it presses it into the depths of darkness. If humanity were united and completely filled with good volition, then the earth would rise upwards again to the place the Creator had chosen for it from the beginning but from which humanity choose to stray.
So great is the power of prayer that it can open gates to higher realms and draw on the power of the Light that is God.
We can wrap ourselves in this Light energy and protect ourselves against base interests and temptations. If we were to live completely in it, we would wondrously transform everything around us.
How often do we desperately struggle to help somebody off the wrong track. However, oftentimes he closes himself to us. He thinks he is misunderstood, misjudged and does not see his mistake. His intellectual reasoning hinders the recognition of his spirit.
If we turn instead, in prayer, to his spirit, and ask for help, it is wonderful to experience how the person, himself unaware, can be transformed. A web of luminous threads envelops him and keeps debasing forms at bay. One inhibition after the other, to which he is still clinging erroneously, can fall away from him under the influence of these light energies. He becomes brighter within himself because his environment has grown brighter.
We often feel an inner radiance emanating from a complete stranger, whose language we may not even know. We understand as it were, without understanding. We are in receipt of psychic radiance, popularly known as 'good vibes.'
A prayerful life, in all simplicity and naturalness, connecting us to the radiant power of the Most High, is happiness and bliss! And this happiness is within reach of every human spirit. In striving upwards to the Light, all that is base, dense and evil is left forever behind us!
In the Light of Truth: The Grail Message, by Abd-ru-shin (Oskar Ernst Bernhardt, 1875 - 1941)
In the Light of Truth: The Grail Message is a classic work that offers clear and perceptive answers to questions which challenge every human being. Written between the years 1923 - 1938, it is a collection of 168 essays addressing all spheres of life ranging from God and the Universe to the Laws in Creation, the meaning of life, responsibility, free will, intuition and the intellect, the ethereal world and the beyond, justice and love. It answers eternal questions such as what does it mean to be human, what is the purpose of life on Earth, and what happens to "me" when I die. In the Light of Truth: The Grail Message explains the causes and significance of the unprecedented crises facing humanity, and our responsibilities to the future.
Concerning In the Light of Truth: The Grail Message, Abd-ru-shin writes, "I wish to fill the gaps which so far have remained unanswered in the souls of men as burning questions, and which never leave any serious thinker in peace."
Throughout The Grail Message readers are urged to weigh questions and answers intuitively, to confront them within their own life experiences, and only to believe that which they can perceive inwardly. Only through this process can one reach true conviction in one's life.
In the Light of Truth is a classic work written some 60 years ago [that] carries the weight of a time-tested message (one million copies in print world-wide.) The essential truth, the desire to challenge us, to confront questions and answers within ourselves, shines through. The serious seeker, the reader who is willing to make the effort this book requires, will find inspiration, guidance, encouragement, and truth. -- NAPRA ReView, Fall, 1995
In the Light of Truth: The Grail Message, which Oskar Ernst Bernhardt began to write in 1923 in Dresden, has now been translated into almost all the civilized languages of the western hemisphere and is available ... around the globe. It was forbidden in the 'Third Reich,' but was also on the list of banned literature in East Germany. These periods of prohibition (in East Germany more than fifty years) markedly curtailed the possibility of disseminating In the Light of Truth and making it known. One wonders why a non-political book like In the Light of Truth was still regarded by political systems as a 'source of danger.' The reason, perhaps, is that it sets up personal awareness of responsibility and individual freedom of choice against all conformity. Furthermore, dogmatic limitations are alien to it, since it gives a comprehensive understanding, on the basis of the Laws of Creation, of the world and of life--beyond nationalities, races, and creeds. -- Dresdner Nachrichten, November 1991
From the Publisher
With over 1,000,000 copies in print, In the Light of Truth: The Grail Message, by Abd-ru-shin (Oskar Ernst Bernhardt, 1875 - 1941) has captivated readers with clear-eyed wisdom for over 50 years. Outlawed by the Nazis and banned by Communist rulers, Abd-ru- shin's masterwork now speaks to new generations grappling with eternal questions like, Who am I?, Why am I here?, and What happens when I die? His answers are intended for the seeker who is willing to experience his explanations with a full heart and open mind. As Abd-ru-shin himself said, "The Message will strike only those who still carry within them a spark of truth and the yearning to be true human beings." In the Light of Truth is now available in 17 languages.
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